I know you look.
June 29, 2007, 12:03 am
Filed under: Make Out Party

I can see what beats beneath the chains and locks and fortress walls. I see everything beautiful that shines out from you. I see you in the pure light of innocent morning. You cannot fool me with your smokescreens, with your code of silence. You, the cold vault are not so cold. And you know it. There is no perfect way to happiness. There is no method to this madness. The tool is love and its use is your only freedom. Reverse your breakdown and look me in the eyes. I will see you the day you open your floodgates and let these rivers go. I will watch them carve majestic canyons into the land. And we will laugh in warm delight.

The playing field is level. Be wise and seek what is true and permanent.



About time.
June 26, 2007, 11:53 am
Filed under: Info Burst

Interesting. I’ll have to add this one to the queue.
Just a side note, someone who reviewed this on Amazon.com actually asserted that dudebro author David Ray Griffin wrote this for the “fame and money”. Yeah, let that sink in for a second.



Ultimate Challenge.
June 20, 2007, 4:25 pm
Filed under: Make Out Party

I am about to attempt to accomplish two of the most ridiculously difficult things I believe any human being can attempt in today’s post-modern society. Actually, three. I’m going to try and make a massive recording production happen with no label support – completely self-funded. I’m going to attempt to lobby the government to veto a security bill that’s already been passed. And the third thing? That’s private.

I’m writing this because under the weight of things, I need to vent. Sometimes I feel trapped under the pressure. It’s really the pressure I’m putting on myself, because I want the future to be influenced by the positive outcomes of my efforts.

God, please be with and guide me. I can’t accomplish anything without you.

I’m all jittery.



No Jack Sparrow.
June 19, 2007, 8:23 pm
Filed under: TV Ooze

Though this summer’s 3rd Pirate’s installment is definitely a worthy watch (as are the last two), this is really the only pirate-related tv ooze you should be hooking up to your IV. Classic cartoon that only works because some network show-manufacturing think tank decided to build the entire show on a childhood game. Ever play “don’t touch the floor, it’s lava!” as an excuse to walk on all the furniture and give your kiddy life purpose? Thus, The Pirates of Dark Water.



Mom don’t worry – for Veggies.
June 19, 2007, 2:37 pm
Filed under: Info Burst

I knew I was getting enough protein. Now I’m just thrilled that I won’t have to work as hard to obtain the magic of the “perfect protein” combo in all my meals. According to these people, and logic (I was hoping to find this to be true) you don’t need to follow a strict regiment of foodstuff combinations at mealtimes to find compatible proteins to fully supplement your need for certain amino acids. You can spread foods rich in these aminos out over a period of days and still get enough. Yeehaw. Look:

But protein wasn’t what any of us needed. “Loss of energy isn’t a symptom of protein deficiency,” says Anne Shaw, Ph.D., a nutritionist with the U.S. Department of Agriculture’s Agricultural Research Service. In fact, protein deficiency is so rare in this country that Shaw says she’d have to look up its symptoms because it’s been so long since she’s had to think about them. She reminds me that all of the recent research on the topic of protein indicates that if you’re getting enough calories – just about no matter what you’re eating – you’re also getting sufficient protein. It’s not just a claim made by defensive vegetarians; it’s a subject of broad scientific agreement.

Still, there’s a lot of confusion about protein – or to be more precise, the tiny amino acids that make up the long strands of protein – especially as it pertains to vegetarians. In fact, Lappe was right about protein combining to a certain extent. All plant-based foods are low in at least one of the nine amino acids our bodies need to get from foods. But the only foods that are truly protein-deficient are fruits, fats and sugars. And you need to obtain all nine amino acids over the course of a day or two, not within an hour of each other.

http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m0820/is_n211/ai_17010257

Wow. I’m hungry now.



You think you really know me?
June 18, 2007, 8:18 pm
Filed under: Info Burst

I think I really know me but I could be wrong. There’s always that chance.

So anyway, I just got back from vacation and I am doing some kind of maxing and relaxing and listening obsessively to Gary Wilson which I believe is the only way to truly listen to the man. We all have a bit of Gary in us I think. Gary is in the space between love and pornography, between fondness and obsession. He separates the admirers from the stalkers. He is both, but his innocence is not lost. When you pause to look inside yourself and let your eyes roll back inside your skull, you can see yourself in your moments alone. Ear against the wall of the motel room. Finger poised on the call button, harsh moments of indecision. Plunging into the depths of lovesickness. You are waiting in the dark in the park to catch a glimpse of your lady (or man). Eye contact. Heavy breathing.

It is an inherent natural desire to want a romantic partner. Gary captures the desperation, the loneliness, the longing, and turns it into a sexy souiree. The guests are the faces of those desires in their purest forms. Lust, love, malice, Karen, Linda, Kathy. There is a departure from reality, formality is lost, and the downtrodden scream unabashed before the faces of their antagonists.

(from “Groovy Girls Make Love at Beach”)
I took her to a dance last Friday night.
I said, “Just wait there.”
She said, “Yeah, that sounds fine.”
When I came back, I told her that I fell in love with her.
She said, “Gary, falling in love ain’t too cool.”
I started to cry, I started to cry.
I said, I started screaming, I started screaming, I started screaming, I started screaming, I started screaming,
Hey, she’s out of reach!

Go ahead and lie and say you have no idea what I’m talking about

Anyhow, I have officially decided to officially start blogging and using this as a vehicle to shamelessly promote my amatuer wannabee poetry and such. If you like poetry (?) and other such mushy gushy pursuits then have a ball with what I’ve posted below. It’s the collective writings. I’ve put this stuff up various places usually as a hook to see if anybody who reads it will suddenly say, “Why, that’s about me!” It’s not, though. Or is it? Do you want it to be, baby? I want it to be what you want it to be, baby. Come on. Oh, a brand new poem burst is above inspired in part by Mr. Wilson. Listen to Gary Wilson. Listen to 10cc. Read poetry. Discuss your feelings with those you have them for and break down into tears in a tingling, convulsing ball at their feet. Destroy their party by suddenly launching yourself unrepentantly through their mother’s beautiful bay windows right next to where the make shift bar has been set up.

Gary and the girls.



I lost my foot on the shores of Japannn.
June 18, 2007, 7:37 pm
Filed under: Poem Goo

Where do all the people meet?
They’re not in the street, they’re not at the opera house
They’re in their rooms alone
With goggles on
Looking at each other
Because you see everyone’s room has a camera in it in a secret place
You don’t know who’s watching but that’s ok, because usually everyone’s doing the same thing
Watching
Waiting
Baited breath
White knuckles
Fingers dug in deep
Grab a handful
Drink a dramful
Suck up the scent
Evolute in the moment
Repress your desires and globulate across the floor
Like some kind of late 90’s proto-scum comedy baron
Shake my barrel bones dry.

Look, he moved.



No fingers on you.
June 18, 2007, 7:36 pm
Filed under: Poem Goo

No fingers on you
You’re all messed up
Hanging fog in my garden kissing my morning flowers with passion
And fire
And all those dream things
You know the thoughts that escape into vapor

I am born again
Eyes that won’t focus
Suspended in unfamiliar air
Free air, Justice
Adherence to a moral code
Admiration of principles
The hardships and longing of the builders forgotten ray from your eyes
Spray from your fingertips
Explode from your lips like a car bomb
A suicide bomb

Focus and split me in two why don’t you
I don’t mind, what have I got to lose after all?
After all is said and done you’re still just a haze
The cloud of flies surrounding the carrion
Obscuring the vulture’s eye
Fleshy hand in my garden picking my fruits with ardor and purpose?
Pricking yourself on my thorns
No rings on you

I hear a noise
Am startled awake
Rush to the window and focus on you through my binoculars to see if you are trespassing
Are you?



Ode to the Mighty Oak Tree.
June 18, 2007, 7:30 pm
Filed under: Poem Goo

The whole world is dying
can’t you see?
What separates you from me?

The whole world is ending
can’t you read?
I will not plant another seed.

Instead instead
I’ll plant myself in paradise
and grow deep rusty roots
and become a mighty oak.



Miniature 18.
June 18, 2007, 7:26 pm
Filed under: Poem Goo

In life and love;
there are a few instances when your insides become much smaller than your outside
and the space in between is all you can feel
and eventually, when you lose yourself, I will come with searchlights.